I haven't written for awhile, but I am constantly on here. Things have been pretty peaceful up until recently. For those of you who read my stuff before I removed it, due to me not wanting BM reading any of it, some of this will be repetative.

BM is playing the poor me card to the hilt. Keep in mind, she and DH worked together, she was married and cheated on her husband with DH (way before I ever knew him) She didn't tell her husband she was pregnant until she was 7 months. She had a son with her husband, that is how she got him to marry her. DH refused to marry her, but he did try to make everything work. In the end, he left her. We got married later on. She thinks that he is such a monster for leaving her, but honestly, it was a one night stand, to which she brought another girl friend of hers to participate. How could she honestly think DH would love and respect her??? She did the same thing to her husband. She talks about Karma all the time and how I will get mine. She is just pissed because she already got hers and DH and I are so very happily married and her kids LOVE me!!. She is now married to a man she met on the internet, after announcing she was pregnant with his child.( he had already left her one time before) How sad it must be to feel the only way to get a man to stay with you is by getting knocked up!!!! I just want the finger pointing and lies to stop. SHe doesn't realize what she is doing to her children. Of course, it messes with my life too, but I am better equipped to handle it. The kids shouldn't be made to feel the way she makes them feel. She is just a child support whore. If she isn't getting her money, she starts the drama and the games again. Telling the kids they can't have this or that because daddy is a deadbeat and won't give her money. DH has been looking furiously for a job. Not happening. Nothing to be found. It isn't that we don't want to support the kids, it is just impossible right now. I am going to start sending the payments in, from my job, just so we can see the kids this summer. She tells them they can't come see us if they are naughty, she has them calling their step-father dad, and he isn't very nice to them, they don't like him, he throws them around. They so desperatly want to be with us, they beg us, right in front of her. Parts of me feel bad for her, I couldn't imagine my children not loving me or wanting to be with me. But, she is making life miserable for them. The only time she lets them call DH is when they have done something bad, she expects DH to yell at them. Of course he isn't, not the few and far between calls he gets with them. But the thing is, they are such good boys when they are with us. When they are with her, they are getting expelled, they are unruly and disrespectful, we have copies of report cards wherein the teachers are very worried about their anger issues and fighting and torturing small creatures. She refused counseling for them and they are too afraid to go to their counselor to talk, because they are afraid mommy will get mad and not let me see daddy. How sad is that? I am sorry this is so long. Just had to get a few things out. Thanks