I have been having problems with BS15 and keeping his computer area clean and keeping track of all of his gadgets (phone, airpods, apple watch, ipad, etc). I was extra frustrated with him yesterday evening. I was on a tirade telling everyone to get their stuff up, rooms clean, etc.

SS20 has the room over the garage. I opened his door to fuss at him to make sure his room is clean and I see, clear as day from the bottom of the stairs, a Coffee cup from Wawa and Sandwich wrapper. We have a strict no food in bedrooms rule. I WAS LIVID. It is the same fight with him once a month. Like every. single. month. For YEARS. I am at my witts end! 

He came down stairs to back talk some more to me and I asked him "do you REEAALLLY want to go there with me right now?" He made the mistake of saying "yeah, I do". 

I have never seen my husband go from sitting in a recliner to clearing a coffee table so fast in my life. I had to get in between them because SS just wouldn't shut up. I told him to put his phone on the counter and go to his room. 

Then first thing this morning as we are driving to work (I drop him off in the mornings because he can't drive) he started running his mouth again. I swear to God, I almost kicked him out on the side of the road. 

I know part of it is him coming off of his lithium. I know that his irritability is high right now. I know that he has no empathy and that isn't his fault. I know these things in my head. But I also know that I am seconds away from snapping. 

** For those who don't know- SS20 is autistic. He is moderately functioning but closer to a 12 yr old than 20. DH is military. He leaves at 4 am. He is gone every 4 days for a 24 hr shift and still has to work mon-friday too. He is awesome and does the best he can to support me. SS's BM hasn't been actually in the picture in well over 15 years. She calls him every couple of months when she isn't in jail. **