I've Begun Making Some Decisions
Did a lot of thinking lately about how unhappy I've been, I discovered that even though DH, BM and skids all have a role in my unhappiness, I own ALOT of it.
I have gained a real significant amount of weight over the years but a lot of it has been within the last 1.5 years. I got to the point that I did not give a shit if the sky fell in and killed me in the process. Food has become my dearest and best friend. Like an alcoholic, I planned my next binge and then had spontaneous ones in between the planned ones. The more I ate the more unhappy I was. And now I need to work on the underlying issues that I was feeding this big black hole.
I decided to take food completely out of the picture. I went to our hospital weight management dept. and decided to drink only shakes and water for now. I am being monitored by the Dr. every week and it is mandatory to take nutrition classes as well as the classes that work on the emotions as well. Plus I am continuing to see a therapist for step/ myself issues too.
Taking food out of the picture helps me focus on the here and now. And that's my attitude. To stay present to all that is going on in my life, otherwise I become quickly preoccupied by what can I eat next.
It's going to be interesting to see the changes within myself. I don't know where this will lead me. Who knows, I may have a stronger marriage or I may have no marriage at all. All I know is I am no longer going to "just settle" for anything in my life anymore.
And yes Sally, I'm changing up the hair style, lol!
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At the first weigh in, the
At the first weigh in, the Dr. asked me to commit to some type of exercise. So I said I would go for a walk 3x a week for 20 to 30 mins.
You sound strong and
You sound strong and determined in your statements and it is very inspiring! Good luck on your journey HadEnoughx5, I will be thinking about you and hoping you keep us posted!
I'll be posting my progress
I'll be posting my progress weekly. I need all the support I can get!
Good for you for taking this
Good for you for taking this on. It is tough to admit that we are at fault sometimes, and then even tougher to do something about it and stick to it.
Personally I know that I am at fault for a lot of shit in my life, I just haven't quite managed to tackle it head on yet, I keep trying in small doses but it isn't sticking. I keep reminding myself of an excellent phrase I only learnt last year that helps keep me going: Quit-ers never win, and winners never quit. It helps to remind me that as long as I keep trying, it doesn't matter if I fall off the wagon time after time I just have to keep getting back on and keep trying otherwise I will never get there.
Best of luck with your diet, it sounds tough but you seem to be doing everything right getting all the support that you can.
It's interesting that you
It's interesting that you wrote about your phrase. Today I saw the perfect one. My therapist has been wanting me to find a good mantra for myself and today I found it…
"Winners do things that losers don't want to do."
I've always eaten to make
I've always eaten to make myself feel better. When I was younger, it didn't matter. Now that I'm older and a diabetic, it is really dangerous for me to do this.
I am really glad that you are able to recognize the issue and seek help. Often the first step is the hardest.
Good luck and hugs.
Thank you so much for the
Thank you so much for the support!
Im so glad to hear/see you
Im so glad to hear/see you are doing this for you! way to go!