I am bouncing back and forth thinking about a divorce

I spent 5 years trying to get pregnant and it never happen. I sometimes have a snakey
suspicion that he is fixed and scared to tell me.
he knows from the beginning I always wanted my own child.
if I ever find out he is fixed. there will be a fast divorce

I am sick of him making over the girls. I am sick of him thinking
I should be making over them. Why should I I won't get any benefits
From them like you would fr
om your own flesh and blood. Besides their
Mother made it clear tha t she is the only mother that they will need and
That she can out do you by becoming disney mom. What ever you by them
She upgrades to a higher better present. I can't wait to watch the show go on
When the girls get there tablets from their dad that bm will upgrade that presents
To bigger better tablets to make his present look like shit.

Actually I am a little pissed they are getting them and I am not even getting one
Knowing I been wanting one all alone.

My dear husband can go fuck himself the next time I get paid. Regardless to whatever I am buying my self a tablet.