Today I am so drained...Every day feels like a struggle trying to communicate with my husband. Everything is misinterpreted!!! All I know is we constantly have "power struggles." Today we fought over which pan to make eggs in. I'm losing it!! Honestly, I feel if I just keep my mouth shut about everything, and do not make any suggestions (whether it's about our kids or not, or whether my idea is better or not) and just become a yes person, life may be smoother.

Well...not even two months later, another occasion came up where we had to hang out with my Dh's ex. This time instead of just Dh, her, and their 2 kids and me, more people were expected to attend the party at her house (where my hubby lived for 18 years with her) so I was okay with it. I promised myself I wouldn't torture myself as I peeked into their old bedroom, or wouldn't try to create scenarios of them two sitting outside on the deck...

Fearless mentioned how furious she was when her DH told her "the sd can sleep over whenever she wants!!" (whether fearless was okay with it or not) which made me think: What was the one thing hubby said to me that made me see red also?

For reasons that are way beyond my comprehension, Dh insisted that this year we had no choice but to go out to dinner with his exwife and his children to celebrate ss 16th birthday. I resisted this idea because in my heart we are not one big family…we are two now. I agreed thinking the exwifes parents would be there, the aunts, etc and it was a “family” celebration sort of get together but it turned out to be only me and |Dh’s old pre-divorce family.