As some of you here already know, my fiance has MS. He has been on anti-depressants for a while, but they have been causing some side effects. The doctor told him to go off them, and he has an appointment next week to adjust his meds. So I do attribute some of this to the anti-depressants leaving his system.

The other night when I got home from work, I just walked in the door and DF exploded at me. He started going on and on about how I don't like his kids, how I won't talk to them, etc. And then he said that they are not bad kids, and that they have helped me out already (true they have). Also I am a member of a "Childless by Choice" group on Facebook, and he said that he thinks that is just horrible, and if my friends with kids knew who I *really* was they would not talk to me, etc. etc.

I am not sure where this even came from. Nothing has happened recently. He said that when his kids come around, I go in the bedroom and shut the door (true). I said that they are not there to see me, and that I am just giving him his time with his kids. And his kids say nothing to me either! If I say hi, they usually say hi back but that's it. If I am in a good mood, I might say hello. But most of the time I just ignore them and go about my own business. I tried for *3 YEARS* to get along with his kids. Most of the time when I would try to talk to them, they would just look at me like I had 3 heads. So eventually I just gave up. How much is a person supposed to take?

Then I told him that my friends might stop by the next night, and he had a fit about that. Excuse me, I can count on the fingers of one hand how many times people have come to visit me in the past year. My mom thinks I live too far away, my so-called "best friend" no longer speaks to me (for reasons known only to her), and my other best friend is a major homebody. So it is ok for his kids to just burst in with no warning, no phone call, nothing,and I am just supposed to be all smiles about it?

I was sitting there with tears rolling down my face. My sweet dog sat against my leg during his whole rant. I will definitely have to give her extra Christmas presents this year--love her!

The next day he apologized and said he never intended to hurt me, but he had to get his feelings out. Plus he has been having pain lately and has been in a horrible mood. I told him he better call his damn doctor and get back on his meds, STAT!

Not sure how I am feeling right now. I am trying to do things to better myself (going back to school, losing some weight). I am seriously thinking if he does not get back on his meds, it may mean a change of address for me!