Ugh. Do you ever feel like you can't win for losing? My BD (16) who I have a great relationship with is mad at me for being extra nice to SD who is younger. SD has been really trying, very sweet and I FINALLY feel like I may be able to develop a bond with her and my BD is JEALOUS. She says at the grocery store today I only paid attention to SD, which is kind of true. Tomorrow is DH's birthday and I was helping her pick out some Starbucks coffee for the morning. It was her request to do this nice thing for her Dad and I certainly want to reward that.

BD says we were all chummy chummy and ignoring her. Of course she had a friend with her and I was trying to give her some space since SD tends to annoy her, but I just get told what I'm doing wrong.

I feel so exhausted at times trying to meet everyone's needs and feel like sometimes mine just don't count. There are times I just wonder if I can really do this and be a great parent to my own children and good enough for my step children.

I feel like when I start working on having a good relationship with my skids, my BD gets very sarcastic and pushes me away. I know she's worried that I'm going to replace her, I know she's wants to know I'm never going to leave her (like her own Father did for a new family) and I'm always trying to fix it for her. I just feel like she is such a great kid but she tends to really push to have just me. I'm almost suffocated at times.