Hello everyone!

So I need some advice... Because I have NO iDEA on what is ok and what isn't anymore!
So I packed my bags and headed to AZ to visit my sisters and brothers that live out here for 2 weeks and I got to say it feels sooooo good to be away from the daily drama! I feel so relaxed that I almost feel guilty! I brought my BS who is 6 months old, and left FDH at home alone with SD9.

Being away from both of them is making me see ALL the things I do for them... And I hope it's making them see as we'll. For my FDH I don't mind of course but it's SD9 that I have a problem with.

SD9 lives full time with us.. FDH is 30 and I am 22 and staying at home for the moment. FDH works 50 + hours a week and hardly has the time to give us. With that being said, SD9 spends more time with me than her dad.. I check her HW , make her lunch and dinner.. Remind her that she needs to shower, clean after her and just everything a mother should do! It isn't so rewarding because I fe so unappreciated by her.. She sneaks around behind my back and does things she knows she isn't allowed to do! It's like she is testing me! It is such a constant struggle that shouldn't even be my problem in the first place!! Not even her own dad has the time to do all those things that I do! Aside from that she has jealousy issues towards me that have made my life hell! My pregnancy especially and I can't help but I feel resentment towards her for it.

I don't really know exactly why I've never told FDH about this.. But he isn't blind! I know he sees everything perfectly how they are and just chooses to signore the problem hoping it will go away on its own!

Now ... Since I've been out here in AZ I've realized that I have been more than I should be doing! I am considering staying out here and just not going back!! I feel so friken used and not myself anymore!

What do you guys think???? It is a bit much isn't if? I love FDH but he thinks his daughter is mine and she is my responsibility .. I came into this relationship completely blind sighted to what being in a blended family would be like....
Now BM doesn't live in this country and I know she messages SD from time to time but I don't throne she is coming any time soon and if she did , she would not take SD. She has another daughter age 16 that she leaves with her dad as well.

I have put serious thought into this.. And if for whatever reason SD acted like the perfect little angel I would still have such anger towards her for all the stress a and moments she stole from me. I understand she is a child and all that but .. How would you feel on the day you are giving birth she fakes an illness and does not let her dad leave her sight? Instead of that day being a beautiful day I felt so much anger and was all that I would think about while I was in the hospital.

So FDH is coming to pick us up on Friday and I am so tempted to tell him not to come for us!