I am getting married in 2 weeks, to a man that I have been with for 5 years. Yes, I know what I am getting myself into. YES BM is a pain in the ass and I hope she walks into a hail of gunfire very very SOON.However; in my situation SS is amazing and so is FH. Sure FH and I have had our battles about BM. She calls too much, she doesn't ever think of SS's best interest, she is a control freak and a lazy poor excuse of a human that doesn't deserve to share the same AIR that we breathe. YES, I feel THAT strongly about it. But in the end I love FH more than anything... I love SS as much as I do my own kids. I would not trade that for anything. I know I have 12 more years of this crap (and probably more, but don't burst my bubble, in my own mind she will drop off the face of the earth on SS's 18th birthday...let me live in denial for a while). I have put up with her and SURVIVED the past 5 years. I am not about to walk away now. I can't imagine putting any of my kids threw ANOTHER divorce... and I would never ever want to live without any of them. And with that, come the lazy nasty piece of Sh*t human that my fiance was stupid enough to knock up 6 and 1/2 years ago. In his defense, she was normal before she became a mom. I am afraid she pushed to hard and her brain fell out with the plancenta. I was hoping she was one of those people that keeps that stuff so we could fish her brain out of the remains... no luck, it is gone. She probably used it to fertilize her marijuana garden. I dunno.

Yes I come on this site and vent. On occassion I am told to chill... and I am over reacting, and it is usually those times that I NEED to hear it. I tend to expect the worst out of her... and sometimes it just isn't that big of a deal. And it usually isn't until someone on this website cyberslaps some sense into me before I realize it... Lord knows if FH tells me that, I will blow up because he is "taking HER side"... I need to hear it from YALL sometimes.

I have been on this site for ummm, 3 years (under different names for personal reasons) and have made some good friends on here that understand me, and know what I am going through and can relate. I am comfortable coming HERE and telling BM off via you guys, rather than calling her and giving her a piece of my mind. That only causes problems. She is a big enough drama queen... if I told her everything I REALLY thought about her... she would be in a loony bin for sure, and if I don't get it out of my head... then I would be! I, seldomly will slam FH and NEVER slam SS. However... knowing some of the people on here, and all they go through, I understand why they do. Not that I agree with everyone that does so, I am just saying... everyone has a breaking point... and I am pretty sure most of us don't want a divorce (again for most of us). So if coming on here and verbalizing there feelings is their version of "screaming into a pillow"... so be it.

That's just what I think.... I am sure this site has different effects on each of us. Some people come here and are furious with how people talk and vent... some of us have made good long lasting friends here... now you all KNOW exactly WHY I come here, and what I get out of it.. I get my sanity, and I get to keep from swallowing my pillow when I scream!