I have never actually created a forum before, so this is new to me. This is just my way of sharing my story and getting my feelings out there. I realize that my story may be a little different than most. Anyone who can relate to this please respond. I am desperate for some input from somewhere.
I started dating my husband about four years ago. I was told that he had a child from a past one night stand. I at the time did not think I would have so many negative feelings as time went on. We eventually got married and I became pregnant and miscarried a few months later. I was jealous and angry before this; that my husband had a child with a girl he never dated or had any relationship with. He was drunk when he had his one night stand. After my miscarriage, my resentment and anger has overcome me. I don't feel that this women should be forcing us to have anything to do with her. The child was born when this women was with another man and the child thinks this man is her father. Would it not be best for him to adopt her? Would this not be best for all parties involved? I am to the point I want to give up on my marriage because I don't have a child that is ours. I don't know that I ever will. I am hurt. I am angry. I need for this all to go away. What can I do?