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non_mom23's picture

How do all of you women do it??? SD8 just got back from school after a night of staying with the BM (socio). I don't even want to look at SD, I don't want to even hear her voice or have her in my presence! How disturbing is that, I feel anxiety, I want to lash out, is this normal?? I don't even want her here right now.
I just overheard SD say what time the BM is picking her up tomorrow. What the hell!!??? I don't think so, we did not discuss this time and what is happening. I hate my life right now. I really do. Sorry for ranting...

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What_now's picture

I know exactly what you mean, when you say that you dislike a child even when they have done nothing wrong. I keep telling myself that I'm a horrible person for sometimes not being able to stand the sight of SD7. She showed up for her (once a quarter or so) visit yesterday. I felt sick to my stomach all day, knowing that she would be home when I got back from work. I prayed all the way that I would not be a step-bitch and that I would rather try to not sweat the small stuff. What seems to help is when I imagine my BD9mnths visiting a (fictional) stepmom and how I would feel if she had nasty feelings towards my child

sarahbernheart's picture

the thought of even having Unibomber in my yard makes me phyiscally sick.
he is such a user so arrogant- if I never ever see him or speak to him again it will be too soon.. (that is not possible of course but hey a girl can wish cant she??)
you are not alone.

"Better a diamond with a flaw than a pebble without one."

Angel's picture

Yes, I can relate to that one! I too have a countdown clock. Man/child turns 17 this weekend! ONE YEAR TO GO

Your post reminds me of so many of us; frustrated because our lives aren't our own. We feel out of control. Before I met dh, I did not know what EOW was! This ping ponging crap was driving me CRAZY.