Yes, I am jealous of BM
I am jealous about Psycho Bitch (BM). I cannot understand how someone so horrible can have such a better life than me.
You should see the gorgeous house she lives in now. Not quite as nice as the 5-bedroom house she was able to somehow afford when she was single, but pretty nice anyway. WAY nicer than my fixer-upper place.
She has never worked FT for any extended period of time. She now stays home all day running a "daycare." Which consists of her baby, SD's baby (grandbaby), and her sister's kids. She sure doesn't seem hard up for money as her and her hubby both have cars less than 5 years old plus a newer van. She has also talked both skids into taking out big car loans for their vehicles. Appearance is everything to this bitch. OK, although I LOVE my car, I sometimes think of selling it because I HAVE NO JOB. I WANT to work. I don't want to be lazy and sit on my ass all day every day! I sure as heck don't want to screw over the system so the government and taxpayers pay for me to stay home!!
The mother of HER skids is a very nice lady. She lets PB's hubby have the skids more often than the CO states. They have been divorced for 8 years and she has only asked for the CS to be modified ONCE. Whereas, I am lucky enough to have PB to deal with as punishment for falling in love with my H. Since him and I have been together, there have been 7 court hearings - mostly ending with the judge chewing PB's ass out and one Contempt of Court fine that PB had to pay for Visitation Interference...not that it helped ever.
I try to be a nice person - to everyone. I try to be the best SM I can be (as well as best BM and best wife). I have tried being nice to Psycho Bitch, even. And more than once. Just to get spit on (figuratively). AND still get to deal with her fallout...on my H...on the skids...on me...
WHERE IS JUSTICE? WHERE IS KARMA? WHY IS KARMA TAKING IT OUT ON ME?!?!?!
I hate BM, but I find myself
I hate BM, but I find myself feeling jealous of her also. Firstly, she had my DH first and made a kid with him. That in itself pisses me off. I hate that I have to deal with her shit for the rest of our lives. I am also jealous that she is catered to and handed everything because DH and MIL would rather do that then argue with her. I resent the fact that she is able to make decisions that affect my life when she isn't even a good mother to her child. I am jealous that she gets the recognition when I as a step mother do more for her daughter then she does.
I resent the fact that she is
I resent the fact that she is able to make decisions that affect my life when she isn't even a good mother to her child.
Ah yes, I forgot that one...
Instead of focusing on parenting her OWN kids, she got foster paychec..I mean CHILDREN and then paid her OWN children a portion of that to take care of the foster kids!! MOTY there for sure!
I understand. This is not an
I understand. This is not an easy role we've chosen, and most of us probably had no idea that things could ever be this hard when we fell in love with DHs/SOs. He and I had this discussion over the weekend and he asked if I would still choose to be with him if I had it to do over again. Then my mom asked me the same thing last night on the phone. I would. And I look at it as affirmation that the question came up twice in a weekend. I am currently working on this issue, as I dream about this awful woman, I have jealousy and insecurities that come up regularly on account of what she has put us through. I want my soul back. I want the girl I used to be, who was filled with positive energy and sang the potential of love and its ability to change everything, from the rooftops. I am now a far cry from that girl- pretty jaded and disconnected from everything I used to love (with the exception of my family, of course). I've let this woman and her constant hijinx into my soul. I need to reclaim it! Fight the good fight, everyone....
I to join the rest of you out
I to join the rest of you out there! The BM in my case sounds the same skylarkssm. She too just moved into a new home with her hubby and moved 2 of her kids in with her and her hubby. She too gets everything! New house, new clothes, new shoes, food, goes on trips, away for weekend at times, new jewelry, everything goes HER way and wehn SHE wants it! Doesn't have to pAY FOR ANYTHING FOR ss, we HAVE TO DRIVE ALL OVER THE PLACE TO PICK UP ss OR BRING HIM TO PRACTICE ETC.....! DH has even praised her on a couple of occassions and made my head spin! Ok!!!!!!!!REal quick...O.T. here but.....yesterday DH and I go to Wal Mart and this pretty female that is younger, thinner (very), perky boobs, perky butt is coming up the isle. DH just drooled! Then his eyes couldn't be kept off her and I just felt that it was sooooooooo disrespectful of him to do that! It pissed me the fu** off! My insecurities I know! But REALLY!!!!! Can't you be a bit more undercover about taking a look! Man!!! He never complements me EVER and now to do that so blatently!!! I tried something too! I tried to distract him and he was struggling his heart out to just get a good long glimpse! OK...Sorry!
Anywhoo!!! I agree with you Skylarksm! I too am one of the jealous ones here!!! It is a personal joy when the BM screws up and I am the good guy for once (however short that time may be).
Very glad to see someone else
Very glad to see someone else feels this way. I've sat by and watched BM geta new car every 2 yrs, live in a house that cost more than mine, where the expensive makeup and always seems to be wearing new clothes. In the 12 yrs of marriage she has repainted rooms a number of times, new furniture, etc. All the while seeing my skids in clothes that were two small, shoes that didn't fit, no food in the pantry, etc
I will admit that I have a lot more now that skids have been crappy to me- all the money I did spend on their extras now stay in house for me and my kids and DH! And we occasionally open an email that says we don't do anything extra He's a horrible dad.
It can be very easy to be jealousy?