So.... mostly my home life is decent. My skids table manners have improved drastically especially after my DH enforced the one warning rule, which is pretty much- you get one warning about your manners and then you're excused from the table. If you don't get to finish your dinner, lunch, whatever-tough! This was especially helpful for the last 8 weeks. I am currently 14 weeks pregnant and for a while there my nausea was so bad that if one of his kids even had a crumb of food on their face, I would lose my appetite.

So yes, 14 weeks pregnant. This will mean our house will hold 5 children. The thought alone gives me anxiety, but I only have one child so I really wanted another. My DH has 3, so now he will have 4! We have been trying for a year and it finally happened so I am very excited.

What am I not excited about? My DH or my skids! I know it's the pregnancy hormones, but I can't stand any of them! I am often irritated with my skids, even without hormones. They are a handful and they are with us 50% of the time, but I do have a good relationship with them. My DH and I have a great relationship, most of the time. We have our issues like all other couples. But holy hell, lately? I fantasize about getting an apartment to live in with my BD. I get angry inside when I think of my skids coming back. When they talk to me, it takes everything in me not to tell them to shut the hell up. I find ways to leave constantly when they are here. My DH will ask me questions about something, and if I think it's unimportant it makes me livid. He irritates the hell out of me now. He's so sweet to me too. He plans date nights for the two of us, runs out to get me snacks I am craving, gives me massages. I feel awful when I'm not hating him.

I also have a BD15 who lives with us full-time. She is a good kid, but is a teenager, so you know what that means, eye-rolling and all that. My DH has more patience with her than I normally do. Now that I am pregnant, she is literally the only one in the house that I want to be around. She is suddenly the only one I'm not irritated with. Very odd because before I would flip her off behind her back on a regular basis.

Just confessing the sins of my pregnant mind. Thanks for your time. Feel free to share your experiences or advice for helping pregnant psychosis. }:)