I got home last night and checked my mail. There were the concert tickets I bought for DH for Valentines day. I kept it all in all night. After the kids went to bed and I was alone in my bedroom I broke down. I realized that even though my feelings had changed for him there was never a time I did not see him when I imagined my future. He was always in the thoughts.
I was probably up till after midnight bawling like a spoiled child who gets told no.
Today though, I feel much better. I guess that was the mourning phase. I'm not completely surprised it didn't last any longer than it did. On the bright side, me and my oldest son will enjoy that concert very much so.