It's over. Yesterday we had a fight with him telling me he didn't have money to get a some cheap parts (about $38) to fix the ice dispenser in the fridge a couple day ago but turned around to spend $30 on some swimming goggles for his kids. So he went off to his friend's house until 10 o'clock when I called him to pick me up at Walmart because I was too tired to walk home. He flat out refused so I walked 30 minutes to get home when it was pitch dark out with rain pouring on my face, it was a stormy night with lightning and thunder. I came home soaked from head to toe. How could this man not care if something might happen to me after dark? What if I got robbed or raped? I think when you stop thinking about the "what if" could happen to the other person, you stop caring about them, not to say love them. I told myself I am not going to salvage this relationship but I am going to salvage the little dignity that I have left for myself. He broke my heart. I have started packing some stuff to donate to whoever would want them. I moved here with a one-bedroom apartment of things but I think I am going to leave with just a couple of suitcases. I don't know where I am going, not a single idea in my head right now. I have no family, no car, no job so I am literally just going to walk out with a broken heart in a few days. Where should I go?