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A corner just belongs to me :)

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Submitted by Clovergirl on Wed, 08/14/2013 - 1:51am

I had a small emotional breakdown today. I missed "me" so much; my things (most of them are still in boxes) and my personal space. I even missed my small one-bedroom apartment. I burst into tears when I rolled out the rug I used to put in the living room of my old apartment (I didn't want to put it in this living room here because his kids are messy and dirty). BF saw me so upset, he said he would put the giant computer desk (which was sitting in our bedroom) in his son's room so I could have some space in the bedroom to open up my things that are still in the boxes. He was reluctant to remove the desk when we talked about it before but somehow he was willing this time and even suggested it himself. So finally there is something happy enough to report in a long time; I finally have a corner in the bedroom that truly belongs to me, just ME! Smile

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Submitted by SteelRose on Wed, 08/14/2013 - 8:10am

aw, I know what you mean. I feel like everything of mine has been so mistreated since meeting dh and skids. I used to literally own my home and all my things and my kids just grew up around my stuff, but the skids don't know how to treat nice stuff respectfully. It's really hard. I am glad your bf is seeing this and starting to side with you. Really it should be the other way around in that the skids have a corner and you the entire house. Maybe one day that will be your story!

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Submitted by Clovergirl on Wed, 08/14/2013 - 5:12pm

Thanks! I knew someone here would feel the way I feel. They thought they gave us a "family" but they never thought about what we gave up to be one of them.

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Submitted by Clovergirl on Wed, 08/14/2013 - 5:14pm

It's not a win, just some little thing to be happy about. It would be real sad and tragic if we go about the day in motion and couldn't find a single thing to give a smile to.

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Submitted by Clovergirl on Thu, 08/15/2013 - 12:19am

I moved in with BF for almost 6 months now, I am just slowly unpacking my stuff because I really don't know where should I put them to ensure they won't be damaged by his kids. So when I get my corner now, I feel like I have a safe haven for me to be me again. It does get easier (if not better) to have a place to run to; to remind who you are when the craziness is too much. Hugs back! Smile

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Submitted by Clovergirl on Tue, 08/20/2013 - 12:43am

That was bad! I can understand why it was painful for you. BF does let me put my things up wherever I like around the house now as we are giving it one last try. The thing was I still didn't feel home enough since I really didn't have a private enough place for just me, that's when he suggested to clear a corner for me when I need that private moment all to myself. That private corner is very important to me as now I don't have to worry about things being misplaced or damaged or even missing when his kids are here.