"And this above all things: To thine own self be true."
So I had an ephiany last night laying in bed. I have been lying to myself, for quite awhile now. I cannot do this with dh. I'm not cut out for it. I knew my limitations but I ignored them. I ignored the voice screaming in my head, "NO! You are making a giant mistake with this man." I thought that if I loved him all the other "minor" things would eventually fall into place. They didn't and they won't. It seems it's all well and good for me and mine to make sacrifices at the altar of dh/ss/bm's ultimate happiness and contentment. Because you see, to dh, that's whose feelings come first.
So many little things have surfaced over the last two and half years. It's like adding a pebble to a tiny sailboat everytime. Now my boat is weighted down and rapidly sinking into the abyss. DH has lied repeatedly about his "relationship" with bm in the past. To the point I had to install spyware on his phone. I cannot tolerate that he works with this horsefaced bitch devil cunt and he Will not look for other employment. He must enjoy still seeing her. They have been divorce four and half years. Ample time to find alternative employment. And horseface tries to run my life as well as dh's because he lacks the balls to tell that troll to shut the hell up. Dh's family has never excepted me. POC SS always comes first. Skips punishments. Talks back. Whines and emotionally blackmails "disney dad" at any opportunity. What's good enough for my children is not good enough for dh's precious little prince. No hand me downs. Must have everything new.
Dh is living in MY house. Yes, MY house. I own it. Name on title. When we have had huge blowouts (never in front of kids) he refuses to leave, what he refers to as "his" home. Really? No, dumbfuck it's my house. Dh spends my money on whatever he and ss want. He's a selfish prick. Oh, and he has a nasty temper. He had the nerve to give me shit about my sister and I taking my mom out for her 75th bday. He said and I quote, "Nobody cleared it with me." Really, dickless? Who do you think you are? Should I shrowd myself in a veil and come on hands and knees and ask you, o lord and master, if I may please take my mamma to lunch with your approval? Eat shit and die.
So enough rambling. Not really sure where I am going with this but I just had to get it out. I have some tough decisions to make in the coming weeks. Dh is not who I thougt he was. And obviously has no intention of changing. Wish me luck.
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Its so hard to remain
Its so hard to remain attracted to a man who is a ball-less wonder when it comes to skids and the BM and then decides to be the tough guy when it comes to the one person who loves him for him and puts up with all his (and their) bullshit.
I totally understand where you are coming from.The end of a relationship is difficult to deal with so you you have my sympathies but you will be so much happier without all of the bullshittery in your life.
"Bullshittery"! LMAO! Love
"Bullshittery"! LMAO! Love it! Going to use it in the future!
Do you think they give us all
Do you think they give us all their bullshittery because they think we won't leave?
Mabey they bury us in
Mabey they bury us in bullshittery HOPING we will leave?
ball-less wonder.
ball-less wonder. Bullshittery. Thanks for the new words! These will be used daily from now on.
Glad I could be of
Glad I could be of assistance.
I wish you the best. Seems
I wish you the best. Seems like a lot of posters here are currently going through this. For that, I'm so very sorry.
I hope your life becomes what you want it to be and you're happy!
Good luck!
Good luck!
I hear you and I do wish they
I hear you and I do wish they would eat shit and die, sometimes. I think the toughest part about our situations is knowing they won't change, so now we have to make changes. And that thought just sucks because I thought I knew DH when I married him.
I wish you the best as you work through all your decisions.
If you are married, will he
If you are married, will he get half of YOUR house? That would worry me, because it sounds like he'd go after it.
Nope. Title is locked up
Nope. Title is locked up tight. My name and my folks on it. That was done deliberately so as to insure assface couldn't pull that card.
Sounds like pretty soon he
Sounds like pretty soon he won't have to sneak around and lie about BM. They sound like a match made in heaven. You just need to get him out fast so you can find your true match. See an attorney to make sure he can't get at your house or other assets. He may not be able to, but he may try anyway and you'll have to get legal help to fight him, get him out of your house, life and maybe get a restraining order. Be careful, it's times like these when women are trying to get the man out that can be dangerous. Don't trust him (nasty temper?) and don't let him know your plans ahead of time. And change your locks (don't clear it with him first, LOL!). If you have an alarm system, change the code. If you don't have one, consider getting one.
It sounds like he was content to be on the gravy train and never thought you'd finally get your belly full. A lot of men count on women being timid or insecure and afraid to break free and make a new start. They are so supremely full of self confidence, they think that no woman would ever leave them.
Now you know what kind of man to avoid. I like the two year rule too. It would have saved a lot of us pure misery if we had gone that route.
Good luck, I hope the new year brings happiness!
Good luck in getting rid of
Good luck in getting rid of all the unwanted FAT in your life (DH, skid & BM)!!
Stay strong!
It's funny how they think
It's funny how they think about "our" possessions.
When DH used my car (but the one he drives) to stop by and see BM shortly after moving to the city she and I live in, I had a fit that he took MY car to go see her. (ss was not there).
He said "Is this our car or not".
My answer:
It's "our" car unless you are goint to see other women and then it is MY car.
His house huh? I'd slap his
His house huh? I'd slap his @ss with an eviction notice so fast it'll make his head spin.