Imeally struggling right now. I feel my relationship is really to cause of all my stress and anxiety, ill explain. When DH and I got together, things were really good, I was excited to see him and kids! Now Im so miserable and im on edge all the time my, DH and I (at the time he was my boyfriend) have been throught the ringer and instead of leaving him, I chose to stay and absorb all the emotions that came along with it all. Here is a few things that has happened the past 2 years; December 2018 he showed me texts that BM has sent him they said she was going on a date and she was super nervous, and another was she wanted to use him as an emergency contact when she has her own family that live here. I got super upset about this, like why are you using him to talk about your personsal life and using him as a medical contact? Well i put an end to that....fast forward to March 2019, my SO lost his job he was making good money and he had just bought a house as well. We were living off my salary and my CS from my ex, yes he did get unemployment but it was so small it was basiclly for the mortgage and thats it. I work full time 8 hours a day and i would come home to his kids being there everyday eating all the food, this continued for 6 months. We even went on vacation and i financed the whole trip. Eventually SO got a job working second shift, i was so happy he found a job little did i know this opened up a whole lot of problems. SO signed SD up for swimming which practice was every night, he never asked me my thoughts or even went over with me that they were signing her up so I had to take my boys to their practices on my nights and his kids to their practice on his nights while working 4a to 12:30p everyday. I became very sick from exhaustion. He saw me struggle but made no attempts to fix it and i said nothing as i didnt want to disapoint. December came, and his daughter was diagnosed with lymphoma, i was there with him from the moment we found out and even being with his daughter in the ER when she got sick, he would have to stay like 2 nights in a row with her because BM "couldnt" stay. that was very emotionally hard and draining. He still works this job and is looking for a new one so he can work 1st. BM has since took their kids back to have them all the time at nights and he still gets them during the day. (there is a whole story behind BM taking the kids, it was very hurtful) anyways im on edge all the time around them, he puts them first all the time and when i ask for "our" time he gets all weird and defensive. Basicaly what im getting at here is, i could of given up on him and our relationship but i chose to stay. I dont know if everything is starting to come to the surface but now im feeling so overwhelmed and sad, angry frustrated. I love him so much but i dont know how much more i can do this. His kids are so ungratful they are slobs and complain about everything. My kids get in trouble all the time and just want to be accepted. What do i do, im starting to resent him and his kids. I was afraid it was going to get to this, when i try to talk to him about it, it seems like it goes in one ear and out the other, and i feel so terrible. I dont want to complain to him, but it needs fixed. I hate being on edge and living like this. What do i do???