So last night went to a play with my mom, it was great....

Came home felt real good, relaxed a little. BS14 was in bed already, BS21 was watching TV, BS21 and I talked for awhile and he told me you look good today mom not so stressed. So we talked for awhile. I went to bed and this morning woke up very refreshed. DH called this morning we talked for a bit about the play and how great is was and then I hung up. No talk of SD, no talk of drama or how our life will get better just bullshiting of meaningless stuff. It was nice....

Tonight BS14 has his guitar lesson. Tomorrow having drinks with an old friend and sat have decided to have a cookout. DH is comming over sat since it is our date night but I have decided I want a night at home relaxing, light a fire and just chill. he agreed that sounded great. BS21's girlfriend is comming down for 2 weeks, BS14 is with his dad this weekend so DH and I will have some alone time....Fingers crossed phone will be off. If it is not he can leave....

I feel real good today, dont have that yuck :sick: feeling. I need to focus on me....and that is what i intend to do no matter how hard it is!!!!!!