AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

sorry guys, just needed to yell a bit!!

Idk what to do! and so many people are telling me to get out! but a lot are telling me we can make it through this!

I think im gonna sit down and talk to SO tonight and be like.. LOOK... here are my problems, and here is what you do and here is what I think.. and see how he responds.
I know SD4 aint my kid, but by golly if she is gonna live in my house, she is gonna abide by my rules also!
and yes it is MY HOUSE! he paid 1/2 the rent and a 40 dollar water bill... i paid half the rent and a 130 electric bill... we split groceries... but everything we have bout for SD.. I BOUGHT!
every toy, new shoes, a few new shirts, everything!

Im the one who has to go to work with dyed hands bc im the one who tye-dyed a tshirt with SD4! Im the one who always has playdough under my nails and chalk on my hands and legs and feet! Im the one in the floor playing GO FISH and Im the one who gives her a bath!
yeah he may cook dinner, but thats bc when i do he bitches about it! bc he is "picky"

Im to the point i cant breath and im about to show him this whole site and be like SEE... its not just me whoo has these thoughts! its not just me who loves her SO and loves her SD but just cant stand them together!

AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHh!!!!!!!

Thank you for letting me vent!
I dont know you guys... but I love you and pray for all of you everyday!
Good luck to all of you guys! Ill let you know how my talk goes!