I feel bad and I dont...but I cannot stand my step kids. I have been with my boyfriend for 4 1/2 years now. However, we have history that stems back 13 years (before children). He has FIVE kids by 2 women. I have one child from a previous relationship. His children are b/11, b/9, b/9, g/8, and g/5. My daughter is 9. One of his 9 year old sons, I have never met. He doesnt come on weekends or visitisit at all. Truthfully I'm glad, I have no real desire to meet him. As for the other four, they have the same mother. My boyfriend has full custody of the two boys and his BM has full custody of the two girls. We alternate weekends with the kids. The coparenting relationship is non existent which makes everything more difficult. The kids are non intelligent. None of them can read, the 5 year old cannot audibly speak, the 9 year old seriously puts his shoes on the wrong feet BY MISTAKE, none of them can eat without filling the table and the floor with food, none of them can clean, they are Ill mannered, none of them can shower or dress properly, plain and simple just annoying and a burden,  the list goes on. My 9 year old on the other hand is an advanced child. Straight A student, well mannered, self sufficient, outgoing,. Shes not perfect, shes a sassy one but its tolerable. 

I absolutely hate to see them coming and I am so happy when they leave. I try to leave as much as possible or hide in my room... we just got custody a year ago so it's now very difficult to hide because the two boys are here everyday. Their biological mom does nothing to educate them or to make things easier, she tries to turn them against me and their dad... it works. My daughter dislikes his children and doesnt want them here. I sometimes feel like I am selling my child short because I have to be a full time mom to kids that arent mine. I knew he had all these kids when we started dating but to be quite honest I never imagined I would have to deal with them, especially full time. I wish things would go back to when it was just my bf, my daughter, and I. My boyfriend and I argue A LOT about my feelings about his kids.... heres the crazy part... HE FEELS THE EXACT SAME WAY THAT I DO. He loves his kids but does not like them at all. He cant stand to be in the same room as them, doesn't like spending time with them and is generally annoyed by them. Even though he feels this way, he EXPECTS me to to be motherly and nurturing. it's a problem for him that I am not thrilled to be around his kids. He leaves me with ALL of them while he goes out with his friends without my permission. If I dont want to keep them he will threaten to break up. I'm so overwhelmed and dont know what to do. There is so much more to the story but I'll let you all chime in on this so far..