This weekend DH and I are finally scheduled to have a weekend together. We haven't had one since New Year's and it's taken a toll on us, especially since we have both been working 50-60 hours a week lately. We are both tired and need a break.

Last weekend when DH dropped the girls back with their mother, SD11 asked him "You're going to pick us up again next weekend, right daddy?". Also, SD9's birthday is next Tuesday (Valentine's Day, what are the odds?) and we were supposed to throw her a slumber party, which will have to be pushed to next weekend, but even though we told them next weekend they were not going to be with us she still thinks somehow we are having her party this weekend.

I am hoping beyond hope that BM lets her mother pick up the girls for the weekend like she does every other weekend she is supposed to have them. I hoping that BM doesn't decide to keep the girls away from her mother because they are fighting. I hope that if she does keep them for the weekend BM can keep it together at least one night so that DH does not have to run out in the middle of the night to pick them up. I am also hoping that the SD's don't call him and give him some kind of guilt trip that makes him go running to their rescue. I have even volunteered to watch them all next weekend while he is working so that I have at least a little time with him.

I know it is selfish and that those girls need a decent parent in their lives, but if I do not get a break this weekend, DH and I will spontaneously combust. The reason he is able to have a home that is an option for them to live in is because our marriage provides that stability. Without that stability there is no possibility that he will get custody of them either.