This post has the potential to be very gossipy but I am still too brittle to really voice everything that happened.

My phone finally went kaput. It has been hanging on the brink - rather I have made it hang on the brink with duct tape etc - until my phone contract expires but alas, no duct tape or soldering could help it through its last adventure ... the toilet.

DH gave me his old phone until it is time to buy a new one. It has been about a year since he last used it. HE is a GADGET addict.
Sadly the call log and locked messages were still on there. So when I activated my number to it, I saw all his locked messages from BM.
He locked them so he could use them in court if necessary.
Unfortunately, the curious kitten that I am I read them.
They were awful. Some of them talked about the things DH did during their marriage that screwed them up, some of the things were about her and all the things she did.
The biggest one is that she admitted: "Had I known SS9 was going to be a girl before 7 months, I would have had him aborted! I hate how much he looks, acts, and thinks like you!"

I couldn't stop crying last night. Even now, I am shaken to my core.

How can she say that she loves them so much and will fight to the end for them but less than a year ago she admits this? People say stupid things in anger but isn't there a little truth in everything?