So DH told me on Thursday SD would be coming over from my previous post we all know I’m disengaged. He informed me she would only be staying a night. Okay. I can manage. But yet again dear SD’s mother has found herself not home and not available and we are at almost 4:30 on Sunday. 

Marriage is about compromise. So I yet again tolerate this crap, but I am beyond frustrated. It’s anhuge inconvenience that she’s here. Sorry but it is. I am a person about routine, I have extreme anxiety and it’s one of my downfalls I’ll admit but I like my routine. Our two babies - 16 months and 4 months- share a room. When the 4mth old wakes up I get her and take her to the living room to feed her to not wake up the 16month old which is chaotic as you can imagine. When she’s here my routine changes, she falls asleep in the living room, so when I make noise she’s pissy at me - ok whatever. So when you tell me ONE NIGHT damn it mean it ! I’m a sahm so the girls and I have the routine because he’s a trucker and I need a routine. But no consideration goes into that. 

He always ALWAYS has an excuse - “babe she needs a break”, “babe she wants to go out and have fun” 

I’m over it. Sooooo f’ing over it. The excuses. The drama that comes with SD coming - not cleaning her mess, not even having the decency to THROW AWAY her sanitary napkins in the damn TRASH located next to the damn toilet in the guest bedroom. Leaving blankets all over the damn living room. 

When asked why doesn’t she sleep in the guest room “I’m not a guest” oh no honey you most certainly are because in this family if you weren’t you’re expected to carry your own weight. 

Over all the bs this damn child bring.