it's day 2 of our summer and it's also the 2nd day that the sKids were wiped out at the end of the day. I feel a little bad, but not really. A 5 and 7 year old boy should be able to keep pace with a late 20 something woman.

Why so cruel? Well each kid is special and has different needs.

SS5 is a little behind socially and the school said that the best thing for him is to put him in social situations and to be around other kids as much as he can over the summer.

SS7 has been having problem sleeping and is a little... um like a zombie at times.

Both children lack endurance and stamina. They can't keep up with their peers.

I have been trying to 'ease' them into physical and social activities, because then get next to none at BM's - custody is 50/50 EOW. Of course they were tried Sunday when BM dropped them off so they started off drained.

Monday, I let them lounge in the morning (it looked like rain) and then I took them to the park for an hour and half, we came home drank water and relaxed. Both boys got put in bed early because they got 'whiny'.

Today, We went to a children's workshop - painting and planting flower pots - for 2 hours between sessions they played on the merry-go-round. Come home for lunch and a 4 hour rest period (they watched TV most of that) and then to a magic show at 6 and shopping at wal-mart. Both boys were done but I insisted on bathes for both, SS7 end up having a panic attack (his 3rd in a less than a month) we think they are brought on by being over tired, he gets upset for no apparent reason then starts making stuff up. I have had panic attacks so I know how to deal with them, it's more mental than anything so we gave him a kids tums and told him he was fine, then got him off to bed as quickly as we could. We are having a hard time convincing BM that he needs to see a doc - FDH is gonna ask AGAIN. But she says he doesn't have them at her house - but she leaves the TV on all the time and shoves them in their room.

Tomorrow, I have planned breakfast at Gma's followed by a guided hike at the children's nature center. It's an hour away so I am hoping that I can get them to sleep in the car on the way home because I signed SS7 up for something at the library later in the day.

Now I am wondering if I really am asking too much of these kids? Do I back down or keep at it? I have FDH blessing to push the boys - he agrees that they needs to do stuff out side of the house. I told him at this rate we probably won't see 'results' until end of summer.