Hey everyone I wanted to drop a line to let you all know I am still alive and doing good. BM actually took her week of custody this past week so It has been a very nice week with my DH and my bio-son. The steppkids come back on Monday and of course DH nor BM found any type of summer childcare. For the past three years I am the one we found summer childcare for their kids - not this year, just like I said, I am staying true to my word and DH and BM are not using me to provide for their kids anymore. I am sure he will leave them home all day alone (SD13 and SS10). I told my mom they can have it, I am sure they will destory the house by the end of summer. SD is so stupid she will probably burn the place down. She once left a fan running in her closest for God knows how long - I found it and it was smoldering, a fan in a closest - WHY? Anyway - who would think these two adults (DH and BM) would step up and find child care for their kids - what a horrible thing to ask them to do - lol. I want you all to know that I have not only come to the conclusion that I will not be used by crazy BM (and when DH depends on me to provide for his kids he is allowing BM to use me) or DH - I have been putting my plan into action and I am a much happier person because of it. We each pay half the bills and the rest of his money he can provide for his kids and the rest of my money I can provide for my son, no questions asked. It is working, my bitterness is melting away and I love DH more everyday. BM owes him (court order) over $1500 but he is not forcing her to pay. He thinks he has something to hold over her head and negotiate with as long as she owes him this money. None of my business. I paid the lawyer fees but I am accepting that as a gift to my DH. I'm out of it. My mother told me I need to get over my hate for BM - she said I am spending too much time thinking about it and letting it get to me - and you know what, she is right. I need to spend my time with my son and my relationship with my DH. I know his kids will be in his life always but... I know we will continue to have more time together. He really is a good man and he really does love me. I have a funny feeling that SD will not be staying with us much longer. She is 13 and already her and her father are bucking heads BIG Time. I have found that the more I keep my mouth shut the more he actually pays attention to her actions/addresses it with her and I get to stay out of it. If I say something it is an attack and he ignores her bad behavior. if I keep my mouth shut he addresses it.
That's all for now - excuse me for running on - I am sure I will have something to put on her next week - with SD spending a week with BM I can't imagine how she has been brainwashed - she'll probably come back possessed by the BM devil. I'll be strong - ladies and gentlemen - you all stay strong too!