I have been reading many of the tales of heartbreak and break up and my heart goes out to you. Yet there is hope and In this blog I hope I am able to share a little of it.

When I married my ExH I did so like may of you, in love, defending him to my own shadow, putting myself in the background of a relationship that was obviously damaging to me.

He had a son, a Bm and his own demons. I chose to be positive about the BM and the son until constant contact became worrisome. Like many, he also experienced a period where he wasn't working and I was footing all the bills.

He bacame possessive, angry, jealous, mean. I came to discover he was talking to other women/or more than talking. I left when he said he would go to the police to say I hit him. I called the police that day myself to protect my integrity.

The officer, a male, looked at me and said "you will be back, women always are" Little did he know......

That my destiny was not there.

That was 8 months ago. 8 months that seem eternally gone. And after the hurt, the insomnoa filled nights ot would haves and should haves. the joke of my 6 month marriage is like a distant nightmare and now I am OK.

More than OK in fact.

I went to and continue going to counseling. After 7 months of roomating with my BFF, I am back at my house.

My brother has helped me tremendously in remodeling it and it is getting to be a fabulous looking house. I got a painter to paint all the interior for $400.

I got a raise.

And I have a boyfriend with no kids and no drama. And, who just ADORES me. (I like him a lot too).

So after the hell came the blessings. Stay strong ladies, (((hugs)))