This is my 1st blog and to be honest wish I had done something like this ages ago or maybe things wouldn't have got so bad I am 29, married with a 6 year old SS. As I write this I am sitting in bed in my mum's house as I have had to move out of my marital home after another failed weekend of the SS being over.

Without going into 3 years of problems....in a nutshell I am totally in love with my husband who 6 years ago had a kid with a women who for want of a better description is pure evil. I came along 3 years ago (am a step-child myself and have great relationship with my step-parents now, after 10 years of being a total cow) and found myself presented with a baby who wouldn't even let you turn the telly over and cried if you drank out of his dad's glass!!!!

He is now 6....a reserved child, not just with me, but had struggled to build relationships with this nan/grandad etc and can still be 'funny' at times. I have no children, never even been a fan and not
through want of trying seem to have got it wrong for the last 3 years.

My husband now thinks there is something wrong with me because I don't love his son like he does and can't understand why I find it hard. I feel like all my mummy friends also think this as who doesn't love kids???? Easy to say when you had 9 months to get use to the idea and a natural bond ' only a mother can understand'

Reading some of the blogs already posted, I already feel a bit better, but I need some advice & guidance from other step-mum's as do not know what to do now....