So this weekend started out good. I got off work early on Friday and my SO was already at home because he was off. So I get home we head to the store and hung out and it was really nice. He had to work between 7-4 on Sat and that means I have no help when watching all four of the boys. He goes to work and the day isnt horrible but I was pretty bored. He gets home and he wants to go to his friends house. This friend is a good guy and I dont mind his wife but I just wanted to be with him not around a bunch of other people drinking, smoking and being obnoxious. I had been playing with the kids all day and having him drink all night and being his babysitter didnt sound fun. I said no but he could go so he did and took the kids. I was all by myself and I thought I would like that but I was actually really lonely. My friends were busy soooo I was really really lonely. He said they would be home by eight fat chance home by ten. I can tell he was not sober. I became really mad why didnt you call me to come get you. He says I am fine yea I dont think so. We go to sleep and he works all day Sunday. Not just like business day he was gone before I woke up and back when I was sleeping. I woke up today just pissed off at him. I cant really explain why I am so mad. I just feel so unappreciated, lonely, and not special. I feel like I am the last thing he thinks about and I am just not happy. I realize this is nothing compared to other things people have going on but this relationship is something I was happy with for so long and now I am not. I dont know if its just the day or whatever but Im not a happy camper. I want to feel special and feel that he loves me. I'm just not feeling the love.