So, I was very pissed at Loghead last night, because he went ahead and talked to Princess with out me. We were all gonna sit down at the kitchen table, pull her finances up on the laptop, go over some info about her recent stay at the hospital for girl troubles- all kinds of things. Loghead and I each had our "lines" ready to go, so we knew which direction to take her chewing out...

Instead, they sat in MY bedroom on MY bed, and "talked it all out." No yelling, no screaming, no tears. At least not that I could hear. As soon as I realized he was doing this without me, I knocked on the door. He didn't even ask who it was, he just yelled, "Go away, come back later."

So I went and sat in the living room, as close to the wall as I could. One moment when I'm glad the wall isn't heavily insulated. Made Gibby turn off the TV for "reading time" so I could hear.

I only heard a few pieces. I heard him saying to her that she would have a husband and a family some day, and how would she account for her behavior. I heard her talking about leaving school, and getting a job instead, and going back to school later, when she knew what she wanted to do. (Which might not be a bad idea, but she can't move back in here. Oh hell, no!)

About an hour later, they emerge. She goes to her room, comes in and out, all smiles and giggles. Loghead puts Gibby to bed. I slip into the bedroom and get ready for bed. Loghead then sits out in the living room, talking to PITA and a friend he has over. I yell at him that SNL is starting, since that's a weekly "date" for us. He says he'll be in soon...

Almost 45 minutes later, he comes in. "Weekend Update" is just starting. Which is my signal that I am ready for sleep. Nothing is ever any good after "Weekend Update." EVERYONE knows that...

He watches it with me, and when it's over, I hand him the remote, and roll over to go sleep. He tries to make advances, and I tell him no, not interested. He asks what's wrong. Men can be so stupid.

So I tell him I am upset because he talked to Princess without me. That we had been "planning" our meeting for several days, and he went ahead without me.

"I just had to get it over with," he said.

I told him I felt the same way, but as PARENTS we needed to do it together, so we both had the facts. "When you married me, you asked me to raise that child as my own and I did. I should have had a say in it. When you left me out of it, it HURT me and made me feel like I was not part of the family. It makes me feel SAD and ANGRY."

He just layed there. After a few minutes of silence, I rolled over to go to sleep.

The butthead spooned up behind me to make me feel better, but never said a damn word. Several minutes after that, he tried to get frisky again. What an idiot!

I pushed him over to his side of the bed and said "NO. You did not hear me. I am hurt by you. You left me out. You haven't offered a decent explanation or apology. I am still sad and hurt. I do not want to be close to you now."

I just looked at him, waiting for him to say something, anything. He shot a glance at me, and he huffed and puffed, and rolled over.

So I rolled over and went to sleep.

Not a great sleep, but some sleep. I've been struggling with insomnia, and this did not help...

Not really sure how I feel. I am sad and hurt. I'm angry with him. I'm hurt with her, because several times earlier in the day, she'd asked me to make sure to be at the talk because she was afraid he would go ballistic on her. And he's soft. I know he didn't dig in the way I would, or the way he would if I had been in the room.

I really just kinda feel empty. But what's done is done. But somehow, I'll have to "clean' it up in the end. I can tell ya, I'm pretty sure he talked her out of summer school. I was really pushing for that, for several reasons- mainly because I didn't want her drama back in my house this summer. But he wanted her home. So I'm guessing she'll be here...

Which means when I get back from my girls vacation in June, Gibby and I will spend most of the summer at my parents' lake house, 40 minutes from here...

Loghead is still sleeping. I might just go wake his ass up...