Since SD11 and SD6 were going to be at our place New Years Eve, I decided why not host a party at the apartment for the very first time? It would actually be our first hosted party as a couple. FDH was all for it.. Even a little excited about it. Two days before the party I had a major mood swing over the dumbest thing. Yes, it was about shrimp. I've been having mood swings a lot lately over BM constantly texting FDH. He doesn't respond unless it's something important about the kids. But at that point -- I just had it. BM already told him he NEEDED to buy fake champagne and hats for the girls, which I had already brought up days before. So when FDH tells me over the phone that we definitely need to get a shrimp ring my first paranoid thought was: What, did BM tell you that?? Cause he HATES even the sight of seafood and worse off the smell. But I responded rudely, "Why, you HATE seafood?" His response, "Someone else might like it." I didn't say anything about BM but I got really annoyed and an argument broke out.

Later on that night it got worse. I told him I can't handle all this, that how I'm feeling is getting worse and I'm considering leaving. (Quick note: I don't talk to BM at all. Two months ago she told FDH she still loved him. He told her that it would never happen and that he wants to marry me. She got pissed. Found me on facebook and messaged me to tell me they had sex. I believed her at first but then figured she was just jealous and wanted to break us up.) I told FDH that I can't handle that BM still texts him 6 out of 7 days a week about the kids. I said there is nothing that important going on with the kids that she needs to text you about. He said, "It's not my fault she's jealous." I said, "Isn't that more of a reason to limit the conversations so she can finally get over you as you got over her?" He goes, "What do you want me to do? I can't control when she texts me. I can only control what I say to her." I told him, "To go get some custody of the kids and visitation so there's something set up between the two of you so maybe you don't have to argue back and forth about when you can see the kids." It was a useless conversation. It really was. I know he's not texting her unless it really is about the kids but she continues to text stupid bs to him about the kids just to let him know she's still alive. I ended up leaving and spending the night at my moms. I needed to get out and away from hearing his phone for just one day.

The next day I felt better. I can't tell you whether she's still being a lonely jealous ex-wife or not. I'm trying my best to breathe and stay sane.

NEW YEARS EVE PARTY!
We got all the food - People were coming over - Snacks were put out - BM still hasn't left the house to drop off the SK's and they live an hour away and the party was starting in a half hour. FDH was ticked off to say the least. FDH was supposed to meet BM to pick up the kids but now the party had already started and FDH couldn't go pick up the kids like planned. BM told him that she'd be at so and so's house in 20 minutes and he could pick them up there. FDH said, "This is f'n ridiculous. I can't leave because we're hosting a party. Can't you drive 15 more minutes to drop them off at our place?." She has the nerve to say, "The way you talk to me is disgusting." LOL Weirdo. FDH says, "Ok. Well you tell the kids they can't see their dad because you were late and can't drive 15 extra minutes out of the way." Her response, "NO COMMENT." She ends up saying, "If you give me money for gas I'll drop them off." OMG seriously?? He tells her that he has driven so many times up to her house to pick up the kids that he doesn't understand why she can't drop them off here for once. She says again, "Gas money." He ends up giving her five dollars. God, that irritated me!!

Anyway. The SK's got here and things went great. Our first party turned out awesome. All the kids got along. Played hide n seek and rock band. FDH even ignored BM when she sent identical texts within an hour asking how the kids were. I was happy! We all had a wonderful time.