Well I had it good for a litte bit. We didnt have SS's all last weekend or last week. Now we have SS13 tonight and all day tomorrow until about 7pm. We useally get them (SS17 has a life and is useally out with friends)for a portion of every weekend thou. DH is on his way over now with SS13. I already have anxiety and can feel the stress welling up inside me. It was so nice and relaxing without him here. I wish I could look forward to seeing him.. I really do try. But im finding that trying is my problem. Ive had several issues on here that people seam to keep saying the same thing over and over. My friends and even my DH has even said the same solution. STOP TRYING. So thats what I'm going to do.. just pull back. When he is rude and ignores that I'm even in the room, I'm not going to correct him or let him know its getting to me. When he says something rude to me I'm just going to smile and walk away. When he complains that he dosent like anything in the house to eat, and throws a fit I'm going to leave it up to my DH (who will most likely bend over backwards to make a special dish or go buy something special, or let him eat junk food) but thats okay. I really wanted to have a relationship with my SS13 but I get very little support and to put it in black in white.. I know when I'm not needed or wanted, and its not my kid, so who give a bleep bleep bleep! Im so done being the door mat. It stops now. Cant wait until Sunday at 7pm .. Ill let ya'll know how it went!