Out!
DH is out, I said when DS5 is a sleep I might join him. If I do, I know I am not going to be able to restrain myself telling him that I want out. I have been thinking about it and reading all what you guys have been going through I neither patience or health to go further. I know it has been only 7 months, one might think that I haven't tried hard enough. But I know, when you guys write what is happening in your lives I just think that, "is she silly, why is she letting this happen to her, and wish that I could say just leave him" then I think myself and if I was to look at myself from outside I would say that to me too.
I somehow still love him? But I am no longer happy In this relationship, this is no longer a happy house and worries that it is going to ruin DS5's life.
I wish there was an easy way
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Nope we seem to keep getting
Nope we seem to keep getting distracted. Not managing so far
im with you! every night i
im with you! every night i lie awake planning on leaving. in the morning its just another day! if i looked from the outside i would be saying leave!
I don't actually think it is
I don't actually think it is fear that is keeping me here, I was happy before she came along. DH and I were separated for 3.5 years and decided to give another go. Things were good between us, and I feel that because of this little brat (although today she became 16 and can swear!!!) I am at the stage of breaking my marriage.
Last night was actually interesting. We mostly argued in a bar surrounded by happy couples. I said that I wasn't happy and more than anything I was appalled by his lack of discipline and standing up for the family. As much as I am for empowering and equality in the house, I just need him shut the F...ing brat up. I said that if he is not going to make an effort to put things right DS5 and I will be out of the house.
I am not sure if the message has been delivered, and if it will work. But I laid it all in front of him.