I've done it. I can't believe I did it... But thank God I did!!

I have emotionally disconnected myself from SS. I care about him but only to a certain extent. I will talk to him and help him with things if he asks. But when he acts up or acts inconsiderate or disrespectful, I just shrug my shoulders and let FH deal with it... I DON'T CARE ANYMORE!!

I literally just walk away or turn up my television and tune it out.

I used to have this huge conflict with FH. Thinking that I knew better than him & BM how to raise SS. I used to bite my tongue constantly. SS would act up and I couldn't handle it because I could see the mistakes FH and BM were making in raising him & I wanted to correct them so bad!!! Not just for my benefit but for SS's too!! It would ruin my day, sometimes even my week. I would spend the following hours crying and thinking "Can I really do this for the rest of my life?"

There's a part of me that will always love SS. (That's where the frustrations came from!) And a small piece of my heart mourns the loss of me & SS's close relationship...But I've finally accepted that as much as I want to change the way SS is being raised. I cannot. This is not my battle to fight. I will never win. So why should I care? There's nothing I can do about it. "God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; the courage to change the things I can; and the wisdom to know the difference." AMEN!!!!