Hi Guys

Havent been on in awhile..had lots of stuff going on with the divorce, house moves etc..

skids are settling. bm is mental as ever but there might be a pregnancy on the horizon so we are biding time till she ups the access and farms them off on us loads more.
SS11 now stays with us once a week, and all of them every second weekend.
We have them for half the holidays this year which is nice but I dont get a break at all from work so essentially have xmas day off, then skids for 4 nights, back to BMS for 2 then back to ours for BF birthday weekend.
I know ill be running around like a maniac cleaning up after everyone (altho we have moved to a bigger house) but to top it all off we have a 4 month old puppy now too...who is barely housetrained.
why is it that i love looking forward to the skids (well not the SS8) but then loathe every second they are with us?
IS it because my bf relies on me soo much to help with them?
he had 2 of these kids for like most of their lives before i came on the scene (he got kicked out when SD3 was 5mos) but its like i have to fecking stay on his ass to do the smallest stuff.
but then in the same breath i am looking forward to it, its the first proper xmas bf has had with them since the split, they get a proper tree and presents at ours etc etc but such a big part of me wants peace and quiet.
SS8 has been off and on for the last 3 months, sometiems he comes sometimes he doesnt..dont mind too much its a lot less stressful when hes not there..he is really needy, mommies boy, whiny and to be honest sometimes quite mean...i almost choked the other day he asked why i stole his daddy from his mommy...hello i met ur dad 6 months after your parents separated.
BF has been getting better with the guilt parenting. its hard i know he wants to be the good guy but if his kids are ever gonna respect him as a parent he has to start being firm with them...

so all of this going on and bf might be losing his job in the new year. great. there are no jobs at the minute, he doesnt have any formal quals and god knows whats gonnna happen.
ugh..just a blah blog but i havent had a dcent xmas in a few years was looking forward to it and now its all effed.