So a few weeks ago, I blogged about DSO and SS and said that SS couldn't come here for his constant disrespect.  SS stayed with SD and I predicted 48 hours he would last.

Well he lasted 47 hours.  March 6th SD and SS blow up DSOs phone and he had to run and get him.  He just moved SS ass right in, disregarding my wishes.  I told him that I would go to Moms until they could find somethng.

Then COVID happened.  I spent that weekend getting all laundry done, getting things prepped.  We had plans all weekend and I didn't have everything done.  I wasn't worried to rush out as I wasn't in danger just pissed off.  Well after I had things settled, cases were popping up in surrounding states and counties.  My Mom is 88, in remission for cancer and I couldn't risk moving in with her at this time.  

Now we are at 3 weeks.  The Asshole eats everything as soon as its bought (20yo, not 12).  Wastes things like paper plates, napkins, toilet paper.  Was told about shortages, he doesn't care.  He takes off and is gone who knows where and with whom.  I told DSO that is not safe, SS took off while we were at work yesterday to 'work' and was gone all night.  Front door unlocked all night.  If I don't lock the door when I'm upstairs or something, DSO always makes a comment about locking the front door but its OK to leave it open all night, no big deal I gues.  Didn't apply for jobs before and now its limited.  Honestly, he isn't trying and DSO doesn't like adults that don't work but he just shrugs his shoulders.

DSO isn't happy but he won't tell the Asshole to find friends to live with or anything, even though I mentioned it twice to him.  He is not happy but of course takes it out on me.  

I'm stuck.  I have to work and cases are exploded near my work.  I can't go to Moms bc I don't want to risk it, can't afford my own place or a hotel right now.  

We are snapping and pissy with each other but IDK why he is with me.  DSO has always been that way when Asshole was visiting.  DSO doesn't bitch at him, doens't say no, always has and I guess always will no matter how old he is.  He is not that way with his other 2 adult kids.

I'm hoping the pandemic is on its way to getting better by Easter.  That is my date to leave and give him until end of May to get them out of there.  

Today is DSOs birthday.  Of course we can't really go out and eat or anything so I on my drive to work I thought, I'll get us take out from Olive Garden or some decent restaurant and we can have a bday dinner.  First thing DSO says...expensive for 3 people.  I said that if we did go out, SS wouldn't go.  So I'm getting Lil Caesars for them, I'll get my own damn food.

Then after I order the food, SS wants a ride from his current location to another location.  Fuck you DSO, you get the damn pizza you talked me into so the baby would have food.  

I've tried to rationalize it won't last long and I need to just let it go but I can't.  I see it won't change and I'm done.  15 years of YSS and this crap.  I don't need a man to survive but DSO needs a Mommy I guess and it ain't me.