Yesteday I enjoyed a few lemon drops outside in the sunshine and it was wonderful!

I HATE when people try to do your job to out, it really isn't helping me when I have to go back and re-do or clean up the mess made. Which is why I suck at sometimes asking for help when swamped because I am total type A and if it isn't done right then I have to do it all over again anyway.

For me, F off to car problems. Today DH took his truck in for an oil change and to check there is nothing we need to fix, replace, etc. since we are driving the truck cross country in 3 weeks now. Of course just like my car last Friday, it needs more than an oil change. Need to replace the 2 front tires and get an alignment. Cheers to saving for the last year because after new brake pads, rotors, oil change for my car, then a new laptop for me, and now DH's truck issues, we would be super STRESSED, but we aren't just wish we didn't have to spend money on those things, but it is what it is. At least we will be safe and I can do my job with no issues.

I am hoping for a stress free weekend too! We are going to a wine and beer festival locally that is part of a fundraiser to save this lake/park with our friend SM and her DH. My DH is convinced they are swingers and have been trying to make moves on us especially after the last few visits. I think 50/50 on the situation, but hence why we are going out somewhere instead of being at someone's home. We could care LESS if they are swingers, but if they are would feel more comfortable knowing and being like, thanks, but no thanks. So who knows on that!

**EDIT: also F off to neck pain, I think I pulled something in my neck while driving Wednesday while trying to make sure a car wasn't coming and it has been 3 days of neck pain. I can move my head more today without pain, but definitely not even close to full range of motion

Eff off to lockdowns, self-isolation and death. Today, I attended my mum's funeral via live streaming. We lived at opposite ends of the continent and with lockdowns etc. I couldn't be there in person. It was a lovely service and there were even some laughs. It's the strangest feeling to have someone (my brother) give a eulogy and to talk to you (yes, me) as if you were there in person. I felt oddly present.

Once the pandemic is over, we're planning a trip there to scatter her and dad's ashes. At least that gives us the time to discuss locations. 

Eff off to some of my co workers who are really getting under my skin. One woman I work with is so rude (whether it's intentionally or not sure but, she's 60 and has no manners) Ex: I was on a computer and another younger girl was on another computer next to me talking on the phone to her manager asking her question... woman with no manners comes up barging, "can I use the phone I have a phone call." WAIT TILL SHE GETS OFF! 

Another peer of mine can't ask direct questions to me just says things indirectly. I flat said you can ask me since other said co worker I was talking to has nothing to do with that. I know I can be "intimidating" (as I've been told) but, damn just ask me a simple question.

This all happened within an hour so I'm just annoyed haha. 
 

Im off this weekend because SO is on vacation. I need a break haha. I'm not a mojito fan otherwise I'd say that sounds delicious. I'm thinking margaritas instead! 

Addictions of any kind.

In a few weeks its the anniv of my twins passing. Her love affair with drugs ended her life. Eff off to the man who started my sister on this path. She was 15 he was 28! He is still alive and kicking from what I last heard. Hope I am wrong and he isnt , may god forgive me on these thoughts. I wont even write here what goes through my mind on what I would like to do to him. It involves a closed room and a baseball bat. I could never act on it, but DANG I think about this often.

I can't wait until they pull the plug on my job.  But until they do I have certain deliverables and its looking like Saturday will be sacrificed to work, again.  Sunday will not because I am going out for socially distanced outdoor dining brunch with DH.

On the bright side, I went into the office for the first time in over a year.  Ostensibly to get a pair of sunglasses but really to clear my stuff out (in anticipation of the aforementioned plug pulling).  I found a bottle of sauvignon blanc hidden behind some lever arch files.  It was a present from an old boss that I put in my locker and uncharacteristically forgot about.  I had a glass last night and it was delicious.  I will definitely have another taste tonight.

Im so sorry for your losses!

Eff off to social-distance grieving. Other than that I have no Eff offs!

Ohhhh Winterglow, I am so sorry to read about your Mom.  I had to watch my brother's funeral on zoom too.

Stepdrama2020, Gimlet

I am so sorry. 

To back to work full time with broken wrist (still swollen) and playing nurse maid to Chef (shoulder surgery)

To quote Bart Simpson "I need more Flintstone Chewable Morphine!"

EFF off to hip pain.

It's getting better but I'm still laying primarily on my left side day/night; making sure to move around about once an hour.  Still haven't been able to stand long enough to shower. But I've been able to get my own water, my own lunch (takes about 3x as long as normal) and actually brush my teeth longer than 30 seconds (was too painful before).  I also could stand up this morning right after waking up wiith no pain meds yet and no help from DH.  A HUGE improvement.  LEARNED:  Every movement is attached to the hips.

I'll still be on restricted movement orders for another week.

The weather is gorgeous and here i am, not outside.  I don't think I want to risk going down the stairs to the outdoor lounge area quite yet.

I will have a glass of wine tonight however.  Just one with dinner (cognizant of pain meds).

Thanks for the shoutout Aniki! lol Love the support!

I'm not even going to answer Eff Off Friday as I think everyone knows what I'm going to say lol