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bittersweet Christmas decorating

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We have four Christmas trees in our home this year. One in the skids' room, one in the living room, one in the kitchen, and one down in the family room. It's a tradition that DH and I decorate the ones in the living room and kitchen together, and we and the skids do the one in their room. My Mother passed away 3 years ago. This summer, Dad asked if I wanted any of the old family ornaments and I said YES!! The one in the family room is new this year - specifically to be decorated with a lifetime of ornaments from my childhood. DH has been working loooooong hours, so I decorated it by myself. Some of the ornaments are older than I am. Some are from my Mom and Dad's very first Christmas tree. Every single ornament brings back a memory. I don't even know when the tears started falling. All I know is that with each ornament I placed and every memory that returned, I cried more and more. By the time it was finished, I just layed on the floor and bawled. I miss my Mom.

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BettyRay's picture

Sorry about your mom. Grief is like a wave sometimes it just washes over you and you never now when it will hit you.

My dad was crazy about Christmas, every room in the house was decorated. He died 17 years ago and since then Christmas has been a sad time for me too. This year is the first year I've been in a place where I wanted to decorate for Christmas. It took me a month, (I was just working on it when I felt like it) but I did it.

I miss my dad so much and it's something that I don't really talk about with any one any more.

~BettyRay

Aniki-Moderator's picture

Thank you all for your comforting comments. This is the third Christmas without her, but putting up those ornaments really hit me hard. None of my siblings wanted anything, so I got them all, plus my Mom's collection of Santa Claus figures (they are 12-14" high). I told my husband I really want to find a dark-haired angel tree topper because my Mom loved angels, had dark hair, and red was her favorite color. One of these days... Thanks so much for making me feel better!!

hereiam's picture

Aww, you're making me cry at work! I'm sorry about your mom. I miss mine, too.

I have not put up a Christmas tree since I moved out on my own.