Broken One,

For over a year I have tried my hardest to reach out, express concern and ultimately respect you as the young woman you are. I feel sorry for you, I hurt for you and I've even cried for you. I understand your pain even more than you do; I've been there I've done that. We have more in common than you want to believe. I too love and have loved him. I too have one of his son's. I too was engaged to him. The only difference is I married him. Apart of me truly believes that you blame me for the two of you not working out. You and I both know that I have nothing to do with your past. What happened between you two is the past stop hurting my present and attempting to destroy my future.

No matter how many times you tell yourself that you have been liberated and you are happy he moved on your actions speak other wise. Stop trying to fool yourself and others. Over the past year you have brought my husband to court four times. A month before my wedding you attempted to get him sent to prison. Do you know that the money he spent on court was my wedding money? I could not take a honey moon because you constantly had him in court. The money you recieved on child support for those few months his job was not paying him, I paid it. The clothes, pull-ups, milk, medicine etc...yea I bought it. Despite his child support payments I still attempt to do more and better. Going into the new year you already have two court dates in two months. What is the purpose for all of this madness? Why do you find the need to hold on to my husband and control his life with your antics?

What hurts me the most is when it comes to my son's. The day our son was born you had my husbands paychecks illegally garnished. Did we not just pay $1400 to you? Exactly 6 weeks after my highrisk delivery you requested more money in child support. You would not even allow the boys to meet in the hospital. My oldest son was looking for his brother. Having to explain to a four year old that this precious and exciting event of celebrating the birth of their brother would have to be done without his other younger brother was devestating. Hearing him ask me nonstop when can he see his brother, play and love his brother breaks my heart. Simple family events like the circus, zoo or fair always have to be done without my stepson. Yes he is your son but he is also my husband's son and my son's brother. Keeping him secluded and away from family is emotionally draining to everyone involved. Not only are you hurting my kids but you are hurting your own son. Have you not thought that he could be traumatized by your actions?

I as a mother, woman and wife am begging you to stop being so self centered. Stop having a pitty party, stop using the kids as a pawn. Stop acting like your life is so horrible most importantly stop bashing my husband as a man, father and provider. You have a family who would bend over backwards for your son. I can show you many examples of men who do nothing for their kids. Plenty of women would love to be in your shoes. Let it go let the past go. We need to work together to build up the kids emotionally, physically amd mentally. Support healthy relationships and co-parent as a team. Finish school, celebrate life. There are way more fish in the sea. Its been long enough can you please just mend that broken heart?