Hi Everyone! I am a thrice married mother of BS6 and BS13. I am also a first time Stepmom to SS11. First off, I knew what I was getting into. DH works third shift-I work first so much of my evenings are spent mediating with boys. DH is in the process of being moved to first shift so I hope this helps. I am by no means mother of the year material. My BS6 & 13 both have ADHD and are not perfect little angels that I am constantly bragging about. BS13 had anger issues and also takes an antidepressant and has some counseling. SS11 is a full time stepchild. His mother died when he was 6. I don't love him and often it is hard for me to even like him. He has RAGING ADHD as in cannot be still and cannot be quiet without medication. He is attention seeking. When he gets in trouble he will lie to the bitter end. He whines. He argues his point to the death. He pouts. When any two children are arguing in the house, 90% of the time he is one of them. I am not a particularly happy person in general so when he is super happy and hyper I am not amused, much to the dismay of my DH. BS6 & 13 go stay with their dad every other weekend which often leaves me alone on Friday nights with SS11. He is extremely immature for his age, getting along better with my youngest although he bullies him regularly. Don't worry, BS13 gives him payback lol! I really thought he would or will grow out of these behaviors. At least I am hoping and praying on a regular basis. DH has learned to love my children, even BS13 which he almost left me over. I feel bad that I cannot reciprocate these feelings for SS11. I feel selfish yet I cannot paint a Brady Bunch picture with what I feel is a "odd" one in the bunch. I pray about this a lot but I still feel this way. If anyone has a magic answer, please share otherwise thanks for just listening to my vent.