I know a lot of this will sound petty but I just really need to vent.

I can't say anything to DH because it isn't worth hearing it and I'm sure I don't understand because I don't have a child.

This past weekend DH and I decided he would go to a wedding alone due to my work stress. He was supposed to come back Saturday but the groom and a disabled friend talked him into staying leaving our only weekend to spent completely separate this turned into depression for me as even with knowing his work schedule the limited time still depresses me especially as last month was the first time in 7 months we didn't have SS at least one night of our weekend.

I am stressed to the max and know next time home will be spent partially apart as I have a conference that I will set up for before SS will go back to BM, and it will end after we get him back and my birthday - we will still spend the night together but as the marketing coordinator conferences are stressful busy times. I cried last night as I told DH I was upset he didn't come home to which he snapped I was pouting though I think he was expecting the open loving arms he's used to when he returns from work but I couldn't do that as ultimately giving up time was his choice. SS can cry some but not much but it's never a snap.

Today I came home early and it was a wonderful afternoon as we ran errands I did nothing but giggle until SS called to talk about school. In which we found out BM is still stalking DH on Facebook - we found out because SS said "My momma showed me a picture of you t the wedding" to which DH was puzzled he gets on maybe once a day - when he hung up the picture had been posted less than a hour...and we both have all BM connections we know of blocked and had private profiles. This was the first thing as petty as it is through me for a loop considering we even have SIL blocked as she and BM have become close friends bashing DH and especially myself as apparently I am a evil person and because DH stands up for me I am taking him down with me.

The thing that really killed my mood was that DH wants to get SS a day early since they are losing time on his birthday (per CO BM get SS 6-8pm). I didn't think BM would go with this even though she has been super nice lately such as telling SS to show BM is new room last time we dropped him off SS was excited so DH uncomfortably went along with this, while BM gave me dirty looks (I was sitting in the truck), pointed talking to her mom about me and slammed the door behind DH to where I could hear it with the window cracked. BM is being nice as they are waiting for the court transcript regarding taxes and I think she knows DH will win this fight. Anyways DH asked and is now getting SS a day early leaving my sad that it's okay to blow off my time but god forbid him lose 2 hours with SS when on Thursday he got 4 hours he shouldn't have....

I guess I'm just emotional and don't feel like it is worth the fight as I know I will be told it is his child and I don't understand.

Like I said DH and I had a awesome afternoon and he does really good at trying to give me time for the most part and when SS goes to bed though half the time I'm asleep but this weekend I think is still lingering on my emotions.