Well DH got back this weekend from camping and he seemed off. He didn't look at me much and SD's DH was one of the campers (1 of 4). I had hoped in a group setting that the issues we have with SD wouldn't be brought up but apparently they were. I could tell just by looking at DH - after 20 years you can almost read your DH's mind. Step-SIL couldn't even look me in the eye. Step-SIL (ssil) said to DH just before he left the cottage - so are you going to be around soon? Meaning back in the city- at our house - around the corner from SD. DH said no - I don't think I am ever going back. I asked DH if he spoke to SSIL about our problems and he said yes! I didn't react, but was once again very hurt by his lack of boundaries etc. I truly feel this is the end and I feel sick to my stomach. I hardly slept last night and had a nightmare about DH trying to kill me or immobolize me with a needle. It was horrifying and very upsetting. I cannot get myself up to go to work - i am so drained and feel like nothing will ever be good. I worry about finances too - and I know DH will not make financial division of assets easy. It will be a long ugly battle.