Sorry I havn't posted in a while, things have been rather mad here.
For anyone that doesn't remember, my BFs ex was about to pop with their baby. Which was terrifying.
She had a little boy last friday. Things have been OK since. I freaked out A LOT while she was in labour, but thankfully i'd calmed down by the time he got the call to say he had a son. He's been to see him a few times. I havn't met him yet. I want to, but i'm not really sure it's my place to say anything.
I don't think i've ever experienced so many emotions in one week. It's something I won't forget in a hurry. A lot of them are positive, but the negative one that sticks the most is jealousy.
I'm jealous that she has his baby, I'm jealous that he may have strong feelings towards her for the rest of his life because of that, and in a way i'm jealous that it's not me. I'm not sure if that's healthy or not.. but it's not fun.
I hope everyone else is okay, and all your lives are as drama free as they can be for step parents.
Love, M. x