Okay, I think it would be fine to leave here now as I am no longer a SM, but it's so hard! I love you guys and your stories and with the way things are turning around for me I don't know where I could really offer any advice anymore.

Here is a an update: I am no longer associated with my ex, AT ALL. I heard he was getting back together with BM and that's pretty much all I needed to shut the door. I have begun dating, seeing 3 guys casually now but I really like one and I have a date with him tonight! WooHoo! Best part?? HE DOESN'T HAVE KIDS! That's right ladies, NO KIDS AND NO EX WIFE! SCORE!!! I'm feeling like I'm I'm 16 right now, I'm nervous and excited!

I think I've had my fill of the SM, second wife lifestyle, I've done it twice now and both "men" turned out to be spineless bit*ches allowing BM to dictate their lives (and in effect, mine as well).

Never again. Never.