I know exactly how you feel. It's wrong to say but I can't help but resent him for being an irresponsible teenager and having lots of unprotected sex with lots of different girls. Actually I am kind of disgusted by his past behaviors. I was always the good girl, only had intimacy with men I was in long term, serious, committed relationships with, always used protection. It bothers me that he was so irresponsible with casual sex that he caught an STD from some chick and ended up knocking up another he'd only known for 3 months. Like really? I know he was only 18 but he couldn't have at least used a condom? Nasty. If only he would have been even a little responsible he and I wouldn't be dealing with so much heartache right now.