Feeling gagged?
I really am not in the mood to go into my full on rant about what happened today but sometimes I wonder what happened to me speaking my mind. BM was a total bitch today and even tried to play the family card of her and SS needed to show daddy his soccer trophy while I was trying to take a picture FOR daddy because he had forgot his phone in the truck.
And then SMIL didn't acknowledge me at all and pretty much told us BM's eldest son is more important to be in family photos than SO.
I haven't slept in two days due to stress and other issues - and then it was like it all hit. I normally feel like I would go off and speak my mind but it seems to be broken. I hate not being able to speak my mind because I know it would just cause more trouble than it is worth it because more drama would be caused. I hate it.
Mind you I can talk to SO and he sympathizes and tries to understand but he still doesn't want to say anything because more drama would be caused and what we say and how we act not only as a couple but how we try to give SS the best even though BM can't afford it.
Anyone else feel like they are gagged?
His stepmother so my
His stepmother so my stepmother in law
Pretty much and we are
Pretty much and we are talking about BMs eldest kid who did nothing but cause problems for the marriage but also his family in a whole - SOs dad doesn't even like the EX SGrankid. In summary she says she want EXSGrandkid in a family pic and SO said then he wouldn't be there and she said fine but they wanted pics of the kid. He called her out again after we left but then his dad got mad so she started saying she just wants a pic of my SS and the eldest but they are only nice to BM so they can see my SS while SO is at work (works offshore).....but that doesn't mean they need pics of the eldest kid etc you can tell she was trying to damage control but SO is still very upset and sees through the lies and knows she's still buddy buddy with BM considering she blatantly defended BM to me one time I had got upset and told me BM didn't choose the life she's living so I need to tread lightly yet she refused all the counseling SO offered her to save their marriage.
Mercury is in retrograde,
Mercury is in retrograde, which not only explains your inability to speak your mind, but also your lack of desire to go into your full on rant! LOL
http://galadarling.com/article/how-to-survive-mercury-retrograde
Reason I didn't go into the
Reason I didn't go into the full rant is I didn't have time and wanted to still know if others felt the same. Also though not accepting me wax a slap I feel like it mainly hurt SO and I have to be in super pissed mood to rant about what's bothering him as it's not really about what happened to me and is his business.