It's my own fault. I knew before we got married her kids came first. I guess I was confused by the amount of attention she gave me when we were dating. Now I'm last. The kids, the dog, her job, everything comes before me. Now I'm laying her alone and sicker than I've been in years and can't even take my temp. Yeah, she needs to be with her kid now. I understand that. Why is it she will bust her butt off to make arrangements for everyone but has not once asked me now I'm feeling today much less if I need anything. Sometimes I really think this is not working. Being dead last all the time is tiresome and lonely. If I had a car I would leave now.