I just need to vent here.. it has been a while since I've been on here. But I just don't understand why the BM needs to be so malicious.. it is not my problem if she did not want her husband when she had him.

I am so sick of her blaming me for the demise of her own marriage. I had NOTHING to do with it. I only came into the picture after they had separated.

And she constantly tells her 3yo daughter that I don't love her and that I am not a nice person. The distress she is causing for her own daughter is heartbreaking. Why can't they see past their own selfishness?

Unfortunately, at the expense of the 3yo SD, I did get a taste of some sweet satisfaction. BM came to pick up the SD over the weekend and SD got into the car and yelled out good bye to me and I said good bye back and then I went inside. Did not speak a word to BM and never have actually. Then from inside the house I hear SD screaming out at the top of her lungs and crying for me as BM was putting her into the car. I wish I could have seen the look on her face as SD was calling out for ME to comfort her!! How BM despises me. But on the other hand, it was heartbreaking to have SD calling out for me and feeling powerless to go out there and console her. Who I am go console her daughter even though, clearly, she cannot do it herself!?

BM is hilarious. Then once she gets home she calls up BF and tells him that he should go and have an AIDS check because he may have caught something off of me! As petty as this is, she has slept with AT LEAST three times the amount of people as BF and I put together!! It's laughable that she would even suggest such a thing. And then tonight she rings up BF telling him that she basically wants to get back together and that their marriage would have worked out had BF not gone running to me! Mind you, their marriage was on the breakdown long before I was on the scene, even before I got together with my previous partner who I dated for about 3 years and actually met BF through.

The situation is so unbelievable complicated. On top of this petty rubbish, my BF's parents don't like me and think I am a "slut". In BF's father's words, "I'm not having that slut in my house".. Mind you, these people call themselves "Christians" and attend church regularly yet can't see past THEIR OWN FAULTS.

I know that BM is just trying to get to me because she is intensely insecure but to be judged unfairly, considering his parents haven't even met me and don't even like BM anyway, I find really unfair. I am not a slut or a whore. I'm an educated young woman, who has made some mistakes - sleeping around is definitely NOT one of them.. BM was already in the midst of house hunting at least four months before I even started dated BF. She has serious mental issues. All of a sudden they had a good marriage.. she fails to remember all the times she actually did leave - for days on end.. to say the least.

Anyway, it's not my issue. I just wish BF's parents would give me a chance, especially since BF's two older girls live with them at the moment.

Ciao for now!