So, I took a temporary job in Atlanta, which means that I will be living down there for four months, while my SO and his demon spawn will be home in PA. This is going to be a tough few months - my SO and I aren't codependent by any stretch of the word, but we tend to not do well when away from each other. Other than a 5-day stretch when he went on a work trip, we haven't spent the night apart in 2 years. So this is a little weird...

What worries me, though, is that I am thoroughly convinced that the demon spawn (the two oldest, for anyone following along) are going to take this distance as an opportunity to convince their dad that life is better without me there. My SO has sworn up, down and sideways that, even if they try, he will never be convinced, but still I worry. These kids have a history of bad behavior (and at 16 and 20, I need to stop calling them kids). With SO's last girlfriend, the 16 year old created a fake facebook, posed as a woman and posted suggestive notes on SO's timeline. Now, SO doesn't check his facebook often. I mean, if he checks it once every 3 months, that's a record. So he had no idea about these posts until his last girlfriend flipped out on him. So, I wouldn't put it past the little sociopath to try something equally as stupid with me. Really, he's dumb enough to try the same trick.

Ugh, I'm rambling right now.

SO said he's worried that I will remember what life is like without his little sociopaths trying to dictate life, and that I will come back from Atlanta and promptly move out. I've assured him this won't happen (if only because it would be difficult to find an apartment with 4 cats lol). "Plus," I told him, "I remember VERY well what life was like before I started dating him, and I miss it everyday." He's worried I will meet someone else, who doesn't have kids, and will stay in Atlanta (also not an option, considering I just moved my mother to PA).

I worry that he will fall victim to the manipulation of his 2 oldest kids. That they will put him on a dating site and have women showing up at the house for dates. I worry that he will agree that it is better without me there (even though I know it's not, and he has gone into great detail about how much better life is with me there).

Maybe it's just because I'm exhausted after driving for 9 hours. Maybe I'm just insecure. Maybe I have something to worry about. My gut is telling me that these little shits will try to pull something.

The only thing I know for certain is that these four months are going to be excruciating with SO.