I just spent an hour cleaning up Ss's poop off his floor. He has diarrhea but didn't feel a bowel movement coming on. Normally it happens in his bed and Ss just does all the clean up himself. This time it was all over the floor (luckily we replaced the carpet with hardwood).

I came into the room to find the mess and Ss was crying badly in the washroom. I asked him if he was ok and said he needed some time. I felt really terrible for him so I decided to do the clean-up. Its not his fault and I don't think he needs to be punished for it. If my Dh was here he would have done it.

I almost threw up. Then I went upstairs and started crying. I just finished crying when I hear Ss come out. He says a quiet "thanks" over the baby monitor and I hear him get back into bed. I started bawling again.

I know there is a poster here dealing with a child who keeps having accidents. I don't know how she does it. I just want to strangle the monster who did his to Ss. And I don't think the electro-stimulation is working. If anything, it made it worse because this is the first time Ss has had an accident while walking.

All this just makes me feel worse about sending Ss away. It's not his fault but he has to suffer the most every single time.